Does God hate me?
You've probably asked yourself this at the time of your greatest life calamity. I know I have, many times. Quite frankly, my mind and the devil even went as far as to convince me that in fact the answer to my rhetorical question was a definite yes.
But it couldnt be. It just could not.
They kept telling me, God tests those whom he "loves", or the severity of your tests depends upon the level of your faith. All that may be true . But when your mind, in its obliterated and torn apart state has succeeded in convincing you otherwise, these words of truth become just words. So I had to search deeper within me. And the answer to this question was always in front of me. Did God hate Moses(as)? Then why was his mother asked to depart from him in such a manner? Because the honor and responsibility of prophethood awaited him. A reunion unlike any other with his mother awaited him. Victory for him and his people awaited him. Did God hate Yusuf(as)? (joseph) Then why did he experience the worst things any child or adult couldnt even imagine. Kidnapped by his own brothers and ripped apart from his father, left for dead, sold in slavery, his honor questioned and eventually lied about to wrongfully imprison him. Immediately you think. How can this be love from God? Yusuf (as) recognized it: His triumph, reunion, and honor was greater than any trial he experienced. THIS is what convinced ME, that my mental state, my journey, my loss, my isolation could not be because God hated me. We know the most beloved of God's creation to him is Muhammadﷺ. But the trials of life he faced would convince anyone in a position of hurt to think otherwise. The passing of his father & mother, the passing of his grandfather & uncle, boycotted by his own city, death of his wife, burying his children with his own hands and the trials for the prophet go on and on. So how then, knowing this do we let ourselves believe that because we face adversity, God has abandoned us? No. Quite the contrary, its because this is Love. Its such a liberating experience to submit yourself to the decree of Allah. Realizing things arent going to go the way you planned, but the way He has. #letgo